been a minute to much stuff to type lifes been hectic... phIl your my fRiEd i love yOu lOl.. rosE it aint even the same witH oUt you.. katIsa yoru 18! yes...! you know what that means.. apples anyOne?! but cheA... oh cEe ceE you my giRl maN i got mad love foR you hoLla at me and imma get it DoNe to everyoNe else yOU know the deal but chea... peep this

was thinkin was writing and this is what came... my free verse for the day:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

You give me no inspiration

your demonstration of emotion is pennyless

when the lights turn back on im worthless

on the florr i lay motionless

you bottle up like an old school coke

take me serious you say but when i tell you my feelings you laugh at them like a joke

you seem to suffercate me

overwhelmed with the drama i begin to choke

lips sealed

a voice unheard

but our relations ship developed

its clear

dAre

i utter the three words

goD give me the coooourgE

being sick sucks... ate some food today guys!!! it hurt lke heck so i ate like 3 bites but at least i ate which was not a good idea cause my tummy wants more more more but i cant do it cause it hurts to bad!! im bored as a champion and cold i got sweats on with a big ol hoody........

anyways tonight i wanna wyl out but i cant because im not 100 better! wtf... lemme go before i get anxious to go out when i kow i aint

hEy gUys going to the er is no fun.. they was sending nurses in and out and then the one guy was giving me the wrong test so they aint konw what was wrong they gave me some steriods so the sweelin went  down i can breathe!!! and talk a lil bit........i absolutley hate being sIck ... tom i better feel better cause the twey crew sposed to get up cause ps5 wanna go to teNnY and miss my fin birthday along with my cousin and katisa and whoever else wants to opt out.. :( tanis a lil sad but ill be iight... dang im hungry i want ham and mashed potatoes like on xmas since i havent eaten.... WOW

aww rosey you and ol boy are so fIn cUte... im workin on it man im woRkIN oN It...

tO MY NIGGA... yO you dOnt even understand. do you love me?? wow what do you think?!?!?!! as many times as i creep: all the days of lonlieness weve been through so manY thIngs... i love you with all honesTY eveNthOugh i stay clOse when your cheatIn On mE.. i looK you In the EyE bUt all you cAn teLl me lIes to keEp me clOse to yOu but ill never let you doWn. eveN thO theres tImes i mEss arOund its oNly cause i needed affectIon.we dont taLk lIke we uSed to dO your bUgGin cauSe it feeLs straNge buT im not cauSe i stIlL feEl the sAmE.... i thiNks about "us" all the times.. you gotta understaNd that i nEeD atTenTIOns and id adVise you not to mess aroUnd witH my afFeCtIon.. beCaUse i lOve you and i caRe abOut You so mUcH.. whEn i toLd you todaY you migHt of thoUGh it woNt seriOus and that woNt the waY i was trYin to teLl you like you shoulda already knew i had lovE fOr you.. i shouldnt have to saY it bUt as lOng as you kNow.. yOu fEeL mE??? niggAs thiNkin im craZy i told you when i wrIte well im not writing but typing everything juss flows.. i feel it and i type it buT im caRefUl abOut it.. niggas like TANi caght up whaaaaaaat? anD you thINk i dont caRe wOW i would hit you but i know you would hIt me baCk and it wouLd huRt.... or bite mE... shIt.... but foRrEl im trYiN to leavE you messaGes lIke i love you MWWWWWWWWWAAA... liKe hoW i INcoRparateD thEm soNgs iNto this entRy...

but nexT suBjeCt parents did us 9 my brother and i) good for xmas like always if i wouldnt have been sick and able to eat then it woudl have been great and why i gonan snow the day after xams.. never had a whiTe xMaS but its all goOd it was my little broTherS birthday hes 13 awwwww hes groing up i gave him his 13 lIkiNs and a pInCh to grOw and inCh ate a pOpsiclE hoEfuLly ill get better bY my birthday whICh is in ... what!??!!?! 7 daYs..

well rOsE we sOme neRds the other daY bUt it was cUtE.. 2 frIeNds 2 faTtIes you are a doctoR my frieNd you fixEd the fatTies up rEal rigHt... and i learned how to do twO new thIngs im stEpPin up... is this the new shit naw thats how we get down SHOTTY LIL BUDDY... haha the twey crew is so funny we all need to get up spoon carlin you i liljay yEa i need some new wild stories liek the doG and stuFF... well i ono im out of woRds and i think this is a pretty long entRy already who read this??

did you reaD thIs?? wow if you did you must love me and i love you bacK!!!

im ouT thOuGh imma go be a doRk and prOp peOple up cause i have nothign better to do.... exCeLLeNcE

wOw how imma be sick on christmas... last night before i went to sleep i pictured mail with my long lost friend TSTREETS from hawaii... that used to be my bestest friend we used to stay up late and watch movies and try to cook go to the mall on the bus.. go to school be secluded cause we was the only black kids so we was minorities.. aww i love you t...

then talked to todd all night talkin bout i cant get off the phoen he be blowing my phone up!!!!!!!!!!!!! i be like gosh can i breathe... but chea finally got off with him and was spittin chokin and coughin all night.. throwin up.. wtf?!?!?! im sick my throat is so tight i aint eatin nothign today i tried to sip some juice not workin! that junk hurts

but cheaa presants were good.. got clothes.. jerwlery.. dvds cds.. tv..dvd player.. blah blah well imma go try and recouperate.. im mad and wae was sposed to be grubbin today!!!!!!!!!!! wtf!

contemplation...

nuffin but hesitations

when i meet that nigga and he puts on a demonstration

i dont waNt a scRiPt

im tired off lil boys spittin gaMe i want the real shIt

i want him to be on the top of my xmas list

imma come bacK whEN i got more inspirtaion